Monday, 21 December 2009

On My Previous Addiction

I used to have a pretty serious addiction. It was out of control - I couldn't stop myself from going back to it. It was at its worst October 2007 and after that I realized I needed to do something about it. I needed to be free! I have been clean ever since.

So what was my addiction? Dying my hair. It started early in high school with highlights. And then by the end of high school, I was dying my hair a different color every couple of months. My hair has been dark brown, auburn, red, honey blonde, platinum blonde, black...you get the picture. In October 2007 I dyed my hair 3 times in the time frame of one month, and then I realized I just needed to quit. I am proud to say that I have not colored my hair since October 2007 and my hair is 100% its natural color...

...but sometimes, I REALLY REALLY WANT to dye it. I really like having dark hair. I think it's really pretty. I think it's FUN to change my hair color, and dark brown is my favorite flavor. Every time I am tempted to dye my hair again, I have to remind myself what a long process it is to get my hair to stay that color (I usually buy dye from HEB...L'Oreal I think...and it fades or washes out after a few days/weeks) or how hard it is to get my hair back to normal again when I get tired of the dark brown.

But this time, despite all the reminders....I still really REALLY want to dye my hair.

But I'm going to stay strong!!!...???

I'll Be Home for Christmas

You can count on me!

Anyway...work yesterday and today was really difficult because I was pretty much the only person in the office (except today when I was the ONLY person in the office). Do you have any idea how hard it is to stay motivated to be in the office working when everyone else is gone on Christmas break? Yeah, it's about as easy as convincing Winnie the Pooh to give up honey. But, there was a light at the end of the tunnel - I got to come home after work today! I will be home for a glorious full week before I return to camp for 3 days to work and leave again because I AM GOING TO PENNSYLVANIA! Emily* would be so proud.

There is a new addition to the family - a 50" flat screen tv! I am still having a hard time believing how HUGE it is and how MY parents bought it. I can't wait until the BlueRay player is installed - then when I do TaeBo I can have an almost life-size Billy Blanks motivating me to get my butt kicked! It's gonna be a par-tay!!

Oh, and since I live in the middle of nowhere, I get to do all of my Christmas shopping these next few days! It shouldn't be so bad since I only have 5 people to buy gifts for. And 3 of those I have a little of their gifts already; the other 2 I am still in the process...But I did do about 5 minutes of Christmas shopping at Target tonight. Wahoo!


*Emily was my suitemate my sophomore year of college. She is from PA. And was the first Yankee I ever knew. She introduced me to whoopie pies. I am indebted to her for the rest of my life!

Thursday, 17 December 2009

Funny Camper

Actual question from a camper at dinner this evening (about the sign in front of the chicken fried steak):

"So...how are we supposed to know which ones are chicken and which ones are steak?"

Seriously.

Also, she is apparently the class president.

I had to duck below the counter so that I could laugh and not hurt her feelings.

Wednesday, 16 December 2009

It is COLD Outside!!!

The forecasted high for today was 53. It definitely did not get that warm. At lunch it was 37 and the weather said it we had a chance of snow (so I wasn't imagining those flakes this morning...?!). But since the forecasted high for today was 53, I dressed for 53. Not for 37. I was so cold on the rappel this morning - uncontrollable shivering, painfully numb fingers and toes, and an even runnier nose. Because you see, I have a cold. I noticed it yesterday, and felt it in full force this morning. Sore throat, runny nose, sneezing, stuffy nose, upset stomach, cough, and perhaps a slight fever...? Definitely not the best conditions to be underdressed on the rappel. But it is what it is, and bedtime is in just a few hours - hallelujah!

After lunch I had to go back out to the rappel rock, so I made some adjustments to my wardrobe for the day. I put on my down jacket, a scarf, and a beanie. I also put on smartwool socks and my Salomon Gore-Tex hiking boots. Oh, and I took handwarmers and used a friend's gloves. Made ALL THE DIFFERENCE IN THE WORLD. Still was chilly and windy, but not near as bad as this morning. And can I just say I love all those items? All those things that made me warm - they are wonderful. So SO wonderful! And I had to walk across the river this afternoon (it was only a couple inches deep where I crossed) but my awesome boots kept my feet completely dry even though they were submersed the whole time. And my handwarmers are still hot and in my pockets for whenever I want them.

Oh, and I ha(d/ve) a pocket pack of kleenex all day for my constantly drippy nose. That's been nice, as well (the tissues, not the snot).

And tonight I am going to drink some tea. And not just any tea, but some of the most fabulous tea ever. Celestial Seasonings Sugar Plum Spice tea. It rocks my world. Because it is so wonderful. And warm. And Christmas-y. And it smells good. And it tastes good.

But really, I am looking forward to sleeping :)

(also, this has been 2 posts in 2 DAYS! What is this?!?!)

Tuesday, 15 December 2009

It's the Most Wonderful Time of the Year

Oh my goodness! Things have been crazy busy here. On Friday evening, a large church group (220!!!) came out for a super fun winter retreat! It was the largest fall retreat that has even been out here, so that was pretty cool. It was a great weekend full of millions of paper snowflakes (made by yours truly, and can I say that I am one heck of a paper snowflake maker? I put all the little kindergarten kids to shame), lots of bonfires, Christmas fun, and ministry. On Saturday we spent most of the day working in the kitchen - it's a lot of work to cook for 250 people and then clean it all up - it takes FOREVER. I did the math, and on Saturday, Josh and I worked a 17 hour day. INSANE. But it was a really good weekend and I feel like the kids had a great time. There were so many of them that I didn't get a lot of interaction with them, so I am not sure how much closer to the Lord this retreat brought them - I hope it did!

Needless to say, I was super exhausted by Monday. I had worked 7 days straight without a day off and so Monday I took a much needed day of rest. And rest I did. I slept until late o' clock and then when I got up I finished a movie, read my Bible, and did laundry. I also went out to the blob deck and read a book looking out over the river. It was so clear and sparkly I had a hard time concentrating on the book!

This evening a new group rolled into camp, but they are definitely a much smaller group. There are about 30 kids and it is a school group who is here for their senior year winter trip. I am excited because while they are here I get to work the rappel rock! I really like rappelling. And...one week from today, I get to go home for Christmas! That will be great. I am looking forward to the break. But I have pretty much done no Christmas shopping at all...so that will be fun...

Friday, 4 December 2009

let it snow!

It has been pretty chilly here at Camp Eagle as of late...and today it snowed! None of it stuck, but we got some decent flurries! It was pretty cool ;) I went outside and just soaked it in - it's been the first snow I've seen since leaving Redcloud in October. It was really fun because instead of falling in clumps, the snow was falling as individual flakes! I really like it when you can look and see the intricate design of each tiny snowflake. It just blows my mind that God takes the time to make them all different! And really, I just think it's cool how God has made everything. I was watching Planet Earth last night (the American one...not as good...the narrator just can't compare to the British guy) and it really is just fascinating at how God has created so many creatures and all of them are so unique and some are so WEIRD. But it's not only the appearance of animals that He has put so much thought into - their behaviors are so cool, too! For instance, dolphins and sailfish (and many other predatory sea creatures, as well, I'm sure) demonstrate complete genius when they trap their prey! It is fascinating to see how God has equipped everything with exactly what it needs to get by.

So as I write, I am sitting in my office waiting for the group that is coming in this weekend. It is going to be interesting because even though the group is coming today, there is still a lot that I don't know about them. For instance, I am not exactly sure how many people are coming OR what time they are getting here. SO, we'll see how that goes... :)

But for now, I am going to talk with Matt :D

Sunday, 29 November 2009

2 POSTS IN ONE MONTH!

I feel like we should celebrate because that NEVER HAPPENS. But like I said, I really am going to try to do a better job at keeping this thing up to date. Key word being try.

Tomorrow it will be 3 weeks exactly since Matt left Texas and drove to PA and I moved out to Camp Eagle and started my job out there. 3 weeks. It seems like it has been so much longer than that. But on a positive note, our time apart is almost halfway over! Woo hoo!!!

Thanksgiving this year was different from any other year for 2 reasons: 1) Greg wasn't there. He went to his girlfriend's for Thanksgiving, leaving me to fend for myself. 2) Matt wasn't there. He has never been there before, but in years past, I didn't know him. I definitely missed him but I got to talk about him a lot because everyone asked about him!

Friday after Thanksgiving, as always, we put up the tree and the decorations. Usually my dad and I assemble the tree, dad puts on the lights, and then I am left alone to do all the ornaments myself. It didn't used to be that way - everyone used to pitch in and do ornaments, but over the years it dwindled to just my brother and I, and for the past I don't even know how many years, it has just been me. Now, we have about 6324.92 ornaments and putting them all on the tree takes HOURS. This year I helped my mom assemble the tree (dad had to work), I put on the lights (Heather helped!), and I am doing the ornaments. I say I am doing because even though I started putting them on the tree on Friday, I am still not done!!! I am planning on finishing that today before I head back to Eagle. I also got to play with Heather quite a bit on Friday, and that was great. I miss that girl! She doesn't normally come to SA for Thanksgiving, so it was a real treat to get to spend a couple hours with her.

So in the comments section of my last post, Reba asked about Matt. Now, I think Reba and Matt may be the only 2 people who read my blog, but Reba, for your sake, I will tell you about Matt :) (and if anyone else happens to read it, the more the merrier!) So. Matt. Well, we met on February 9th, the day I moved up to Redcloud. Over the next 7 months we just became really good friends, hanging out all the time and getting to know each other really well. Also, I gave him the swine flu over 4th of July weekend so just the 2 of us were in the infirmiry. You have to know someone is a good friend if you give them the SWINE FLU and they don't get upset at you for it! At the end of August, Matt asked me if I wanted to climb Uncompahgre, knowing that it was the one 14-er that I had REALLY wanted to climb (just because it is so cool!), so we climbed it one Sunday. It was a really fun hike, gorgeous weather the whole time and then when we got to the top, we had an Oreo party and it snowed! Later that week, he asked me if he could pursue me, and to make a long story short, after much prayer and seeking wise counsel and digging into the Word, I told him yes on September 9th. So, in a nutshell, that's how it all started. Naturally, the story is much longer and has many more details, but for the sake of time and space I gave you the essentials ;)

I head back to Eagle today and I must say I am kinda glad to get back. I love being at home but I can't help but feel that when I am at Eagle and working time seems to go by a little bit faster, and I want time to go by FAST! Christmas is 26ish days away (how the heck did that happen?!) and then....New Years! I am flying to PA for New Years and I am ridiculoulsy excited about it! Mostly I am just excited about getting to see Matt, but I will get to meet his family (exciting and terrifying at the same time) and it will be my first time to ever cross the Mason-Dixon Line!! Crazy!

Thursday, 19 November 2009

Next Chapter in Life

Remember how I said I was going to try to do better at updating my blog? Yeah, I suck at that. I log in frequently to read other peoples' blogs, I just never update my own. But here goes nothing...!

Life has been so crazy as of late. October 31 Matt and I drove away from our friends and our lives at Redcloud. We got to spend the evening with Jonathan, an old friend who was kind enough to let us stay at his house for the night and made us a fabulous breakfast the next morning. Sunday, November 1st we made it to my house and Matt got to meet my family and his new bff, my dog Jack. That week was absolutely wonderful and super fun! Monday we went to the zoo and spent the entire afternoon there. Tuesday my mom cleaned Matt's teeth and he got almost all good reports, so that was nice (but Matt, you still should floss!). Afterward we went to the dollar theater and saw Ice Age 3 and it was *hilarious*! That night we went with my family to New Braunfels and attended Wurstfest. I have gone many times since I was in highschool and it is just so fun! But this was the best time ever because Matt was there with me. We ate lots of good sausage and fried oreos and stuff! Wednesday we went downtown and played on the Riverwalk and went to the Alamo. It was pretty neat - I don't think I had been to the Alamo since I was in grade school!! Thursday we came out to Camp Eagle, spent some time at Y.O. Ranch, and walked along the river at the park in Kerrville. Friday we went to the beach!!! It was fabulous - we pretty much had the beach to ourselves and the weather was ideal. Saturday we got to play with Heather most of the day and we went bowling (I still suck...that hasn't changed!) and ate ice cream...so fun! Sunday we spent the whole day packing my things, and he drove back to PA on Monday, and I came back out to Eagle to begin my new full time position.

It was weird moving 2 times in 2 weeks. It was also weird moving out to a place that I have loved and worked at before, but this time knowing that I am going to be here for much longer than I ever have been. And it's so weird to be back in Texas. And the weirdest thing is not getting to see Matt on a regular basis. There have been so many big changes in my life in the past few months...sometimes it's hard to keep up!!

It is definitely hard being apart from Matt, but God is faithful all the time! He has taught me so much through this relationship and continues to teach me so much more!! Matt really is such a blessing and I really do miss him so much!

My new job is going well - I really enjoy being a part of the Camp Eagle community and getting to participate in ministry here.

So I think this is going to be "it" for my millionth attempt at keeping up this blog. Maybe this time I won't fail miserably...?? ;)

Saturday, 26 September 2009

happy!

Hello all! I am really excited because fall weather is HERE TO STAY! Seriously, it is so gorgeous here! The highs are usually in the 50s or 60s, it is gorgeously sunny, and there is usually just a slight breeze. When we get up in the mornings, there is frost on the ground and snow on the mountains. Plus, all the aspens are turning this wonderful golden color...it's gorgeous! The day after I last posted, it snowed! There was about 1/2 an inch of snow on the ground...cold but gorgeous! It has warmed up a tad and all the snow has melted, though. I don't mind! ;) The picture above is one I took from the top of the rappel rock. The sun was setting in the valley and the clouds parted for a brief moment. Can you believe this is something I get to see just about every day?
This picture above I took last Saturday morning from the lodge at Family Camp (looking down the valley towards youth camp). It was an absolutely gorgeous morning - I went for a walk and took some good pictures and then got to hang out with some friends over at family that I don't get to see all too often. Things here at camp are great - even though it is so tiring to continually work with 5th graders, it is so rewarding! I love teaching them not only the academic lessons we have to go with our activities, but I love sharing the love of the Lord with them and teaching them things about themselves and about teamwork. It's great!
Honestly, this weather just makes me soooo happy! I am so excited that for once in my life I am experiencing fall the way I have always imagined it. I love the cool, crisp air and I love the way the sun plays on the golden leaves. I love drinking hot chocolate in the evenings to warm yourself up (although apple cider would be better... ;) ). I love being all snuggly in warm clothes and under blankets when I go to bed. I love the sunlight pouring into windows and the cool breeze that comes in when you open those windows. SO GREAT! I am seriously going to miss Colorado. I am going to miss the weather and the scenery. I am going to miss all the people at Redcloud. I am going to miss the little town of Lake City that has been my home for almost 8 months. But God has lots of really great things in store for me that I am really excited about, so I should focus on those things more than on the sad things.

I am also super excited for Halloween! I don't think I am even doing anything, I just absolutely love the holiday. It's so fun! As you can tell by my current background, I am ready! My mom sent me some candy corn scented/flavored chapstick in the mail and I have carried it religiously in my pocket ever since, using it every chance I get. I love it! YAY FOR A REAL AUTUMN!!!!!!!

Sunday, 20 September 2009

why hello there fall!

well, i was hoping to incorporate some pictures into this post but for some reason it's just not working. so boo!

i really am trying to keep this up better, but time is just so hard to come by, and when i do get free time i like to do other things. however, i will try. really. this is me trying. right now.

fall weather has come and it is wonderful! it is nice and cool and crisp outside all the time. the only downer is that there is a lot of precipitation...and this tuesday as i am on the rappel rock it is supposed to rain and snow. yuck! but all the aspens are turning a beautiful golden color and it just finally feels like fall. it's the first time in my entire life that it has ever truly felt like fall. all my previous autumn seasons have been spent in texas with 80 and 90 degree temperatures. right now it is in the 50s here! woo! love it!

we have had 3 groups in so far this fall and the kids have been great! i forgot how little and how cute 5th graders are. they just have an enthusiasm that high schoolers totally lack. it's refreshing and exhausting at the same time.

i got to see trace bundy this past friday night and he was INCREDIBLE! a concert is a rare occurance in lake city so it was amazing that he came. he is one of the most talented guitarists EVER! seriously, check him out if you haven't already. plus, besides being a super talented musician, he is super hilarious!

umm....it's dinner time and i'm hungry. adios.

Thursday, 27 August 2009

staff training

is hard. not because it's all new or because there is so much information. in fact, it's hard for the exact polar opposite reasons. most of the stuff are things i have heard before and i have a really hard time paying attention and looking enthused. at the same time, some things are good to hear again - nice to have a little reminder of things that i should work harder at.

i really like most of the new oe staff. i really thought the age difference would be more of a problem (plenty of them just graduated high school...) but they are great! i especially love that they are musical. i mean, at least 3 of them know who chloe agnew is! AND they like her music! and then one of them introduced me to hayley westenra, who i absolutely love! speaking of music, one of my bffs, heather, recently introduced me to a band called owl city who i also cannot stop listening to (well, when i get the chance). and thanks to rache and andrew i now have an account with pandora (the online radio thing) and i can listen to whatever i want! it was fun going home and getting to hear lots of new great songs on the radio, but sad to not be able to listen to them much since moving back out into the wilderness that is redcloud.

but now it's time for a lovely lunch of sysco products which may or may not sit well with my stomach (so far, the food has not sat well with me at all since returning to camp) so we will leave it at that for now.

oh, and i miss risa.

Saturday, 22 August 2009

random thoughts because i am tired but trying...

  • spent a whole afternoon in a vehicle with a bunch of new OE staff on thursday. wasn't sure how i felt about them at first (apparently i have a hard time transitioning with relationships and such...) but they are great! and most of them are musical, so i am unbelievably excited about all the singing we are gonna do.
  • got moved into a CABIN. as in, INSIDE and...there is a bathroom inside that i can see FROM MY BED! so excited! it is nice, but so much quieter than sleeping outside. in fact, the silence seems really loud. i got to organize all my stuff and clean - 2 things which i absolutely love to do! i was so pumped! and it looks grrrreat!
  • saw g-force last night just because it was something to do and i wanted to get to the lovely little bitty lake city movie theater as much as possible before it closes for the fall. if you don't know, g-force is a movie about guinea pigs who are trained spies. it was a lot better than i thought it would be, and pretty stinkin' funny, too!
  • mandatory peak hike this morning. i was pretty bummed about having to wake up at 5 on a saturday morning to hike a mountain that i wasn't all that interested in climbing. but...i did get up and was able to put on a good face for the most part. i think after working 6 months solid on program (with kiddos) my body is just...tired. i have been a bit shaky the past 2 days and i don't know why exactly, but oh well. we ended up only making it to the saddle of redcloud, which was difficult for me because we could see the peak and it would have only been 1.5 hours more to get to the summit! i just don't like going that far and having to turn around. but most of the new staff were having issues adjusting to the altitude or were just plain hurting. when we got back to the van, becca realized that somehow the key fell off the carabiner and so she had to hitch-hike the 40ish minutes back to camp to get a spare key, then drive back to get us. but i took a nap on top of the van on the rack, and it was nice.
  • the aspens are already starting to turn and they look pretty. i am excited for yellow leaves! seas of gold on the mountains!
  • yesterday we played ultimate frisbee and volleyball at the park in lake city. it was a lot of fun! i realized maybe i am not as bad at ultimate as i thought. not great, but not horrible!
  • aaaaaaand right now i am really tired and can't think of anything else to say.

Wednesday, 19 August 2009

home

so this past week i got to visit my home in sa. it was so good to see my family and my dog! it was a very eventful trip home in that i had something planned for almost every day. wednesday i took a trip out to camp eagle to visit with them. i had been planning on going for a visit for a while, but a few weeks ago i found out that they were opening up a new position and that my name had been brought up. so of course, i fill out the application and they send me the job description, etc. well, wednesday we actually got to talk in person, and it was good. i didn't want to get my hopes up though because i knew they were considering another person and unlike me, she did not already have commitments for the next 2 months. they told me they were going to talk about it and let me know in the next 2 weeks. so, the next day when i got a phone call from them i was pretty stinkin' excited! anne called me to tell me that they were officially offering me the position and that they were willing to wait until november for me to get there. God is so good in providing exactly what i need! not to mention, this is something i have wanted for a long time! i had wanted to work at camp eagle full time since last year (well, for longer, but i was only able to since last year) and God said "no" then. but i guess He was really just telling me to wait. so cool!

friday my mom, brother and i went to the beach. i was so excited, i had been waiting to go to the beach for a long time! i had really been looking forward to this day! we left around 8 that morning and i drove my mom's car to the beach. we got there and the weather was perfect! it was breezy and hot, the water was about 85 degrees (so warm, i know...), and it was super sunny. great day for the beach! the water was clear and turquoise and so pretty - it actually LOOKED like the gulf of mexico for once! i saw some really fun little sea creatures but i don't know what they were. things i had never seen before, though! once we left the beach we were going to snoopy's for dinner and got into an accident. the exit came too quickly and so we hit a curb and just kinda...lost it. we were all ok, but the wheel and axle were bent, and the wheel had almost popped off the ball-joint. the tow truck man (who came 2 hours after the accident...we spent a lot of time waiting on the side of the road...yay for harry potter!) said that at the speed we were going, if that wheel had popped off the ball joint (which it was sooo close to doing) we would have flipped and would have all been dead. just another thing that shows that God is good and He is looking out for us. He still has a purpose for us on this earth! we eventually did make it to snoopy's and we had to wait for my dad to drive from kerrville to come get us and take us home. we finally got home around 1:30 on saturday morning.

saturday and sunday i spent in college station with heather. it was great fun! it was good to get to see her again and just spend time with her. we also made the obligatory stops to layne's, chicken oil, pepe's, and shivers. so fun!

yesterday i flew back to co and i must confess, i am so glad for the climate change. of course i miss the people back home, but i am glad to be back in this state. so for now i am hanging out with rache and andrew and having a jolly good time. so great! we have played wii resort which is pretty stinkin fun, and went to see monsters vs. aliens last night, which is hilarious! tomorrow i return to camp, and i think i am ready. i miss the people there and i miss the beautiful mountain valley which i call home. i am looking forward to meeting the new people that i will be working with, but i will most definitely miss the wilderness guides.

Saturday, 8 August 2009

so long sweet summer

well, i have done an absolutely ABYSMAL job at keeping up with this blog the past, oh, 3.5 months! so sorry! this summer has been incredibly busy, hectic, crazy, tiring and amazing! and as of 9 this morning, my last group of campers is gone and i am now free!! i also felt that i should change the appearance of the blog, too. the picture at the top is one i took about a week and a half ago during a night/sunrise hike of handies peak. it was GORGEOUS.

i feel as if i should somehow try to condense this summer into a perfectly amusing and engaging yet not years long post so that anyone who still remembers that this blog exists will have a good picture of my life. i got to work with some awesome people this summer. for some reason, the transition from OE to wilderness was really difficult for me. the day after OE ended was the only day i had to move all my stuff and deep clean the cabin i had been living in before wilderness training started the next day. it was crazy! and meeting so many new people and getting thrown into working with them so suddenly was just a bit of a shock. at first i had a really hard time with them, but over the summer i came to realize that all my issues were caused by my own bad attitude and really had nothing to do with them at all. today, we have already said goodbye to 2 of our guides - khalena and christine. so sad! i would like to kinda describe each guide to everyone just so you know who i have been working with. khalena came in as a really quiet, shy girl at first...but she definitely has a great sense of humor and will make comments that come out of nowhere that knock you off your feet but make you laugh! she also has an unparallelled work ethic and has such a great attitude and a servant's heart. christine is an amazing flutist and just trusts God so easily. she constantly steps out in faith when He calls her to, even when she knows nothing. heidi is another person who i have never heard complain. she is always smiling and is a hard worker. she also has an uncanny knack for getting people to open up to her more than anyone else. risa has been my friend since march. she came to work OE again (i had not met her before but had heard a lot about her) and we just instantly clicked. we have done a lot of fun and crazy things together, and she is always willing to ask the hard questions that no one else wants to ask. she is leaving for oregon to go to law school in 2 days and i am really sad she is leaving but super excited for her! then there is joy, whose name fits her quite well. she is a lot of fun to be around and she calls me out when i need to be held accountable for something. she is staying around this fall to work in the coffee shop here at camp, so i will still get to see her and i am really excited about that! ryan is another guide whom i met in march. we didn't hit it off well at first, but i have found this summer that getting along with him is actually quite effortless. he is really funny and awkward and has a super fun girlfriend who came to visit earlier this summer and i wish she had stayed. adam is a very thoughtful and considerate person, and really enjoys theological discussions. he has made me take care of myself this summer when i wouldn't have done it on my own. nick has also had my back this whole summer, looking out for me and checking up on me. he is hilarious and has this energy and excitement about life and people that is very rare and refreshing. steve is funny and is a great leader. he is very trustworthy and knows his stuff! chris is also absolutely hilarious and is always making me laugh. but along with his funny side, he is very considerate of people and cares about them. so those are the guides i got to work with, and they are so great!

this summer has been really challenging but so rewarding at the same time. the first backpacking trip that i led this summer was on a route called the "ninja route" because of its technicality. it was hard but a lot of fun! we had to use ropes to climb some 4th and 5th class rocks (keep in mind we have on full packs), we had to rope together on a cliff, use ice axes to climb snow fields, dig holes in the snow for tents on a ledge, etc. it was a great trip but it was crazy! we encountered 2 blizzards that week (middle of JUNE, mine you!) and it was cold! but the kids were great and it was a great week to start off with. i got to do a lot of basecamps this summer, which means we didn't hit the trail those weeks. monday is low ropes, tuesday is rock climbing day, wednesday is peak hike day (3:30 wake up! woo!!!), and thursday is white water rafting. so that is what a basecamp looks like. i did get sick right before the 4th of july and spend almost a full week in the infirmiry in quarantine, so that was not my favorite time of the summer, but not horrible.

this past week was the last week of wilderness, and it was a wonderful week to end on. i was supposed to be guiding a backpack trip with ryan, but when the group got here, we found that the one boy camper who was going to come had dropped out last minute and so the only campers were 2 girls! so, i ended up working with heidi instead, and we had an all-girls backpack trip. it was so fun! the first night on trail the moon was almost full and the sky was clear and beautiful. the coyotes most definitely agreed because they were howling all around our campsite (we camped in a meadow above treeline in the mountains by a lake...gorgeous!). the next day we woke up and started hiking around 8. we hiked half peak (13,841 ft.) which is actually pretty technical and there is a knife ridge (thin ridge with sheer cliff drop-offs on either side of you) that you have to cross to get to the peak. our girls did great, however, and we peaked just before 11 am! we had lunch and took a nap and then took a lot of fun pictures at the top, as well. we made it back down and got into our tent just in time for a massive hail, wind, lightning, thunder storm to hit and stay for several hours! it was kinda scary but kinda fun, too! the girls were wonderful - great attitudes, lots of fun, troopers, and just everything great!!!

i am really excited because this evening my cousin and his wife and kids are coming to camp - jeremy is going to be the speaker at adventure this week and so i am really excited to get to see them! there is just a lot of great stuff going on right now and i am so excited about it all!

well, i have thoroughly succeeded in writing a miniature novel and i suppose next time i write, it will be considerably shorter since i plan NOT to wait for another 3.5 months before i update this thing again. hey, let me know if you still read this thing, btw. k thx bai!

Tuesday, 21 April 2009

the stand

well, i promise i am attempting to keep this thing updated on a semi-regular basis. i feel as if no one really reads it though, so i am wondering if it is a waste of time...?

yesterday i went to the doctor and he said my bone is healed so i no longer have to wear the cast/brace thing! I AM SO EXCITED! it is wonderful to be able to write with my right hand again! i still have to favor my right hand - use it sparingly and such, but it is so nice to not have a clunky brace on anymore! it is still pretty sore because of the way my hand was set in the cast and then later in the brace so movement still hurts (but that is because of the muscles and tendons and all those fun things). However, I will take the soreness over the brace anyday!

it is hard for me to believe that summer is coming so quickly! i am really excited about working wilderness this summer. i get to work with risa and adam, 2 of my friends from OE, and that is excellent! also, my friend kristin will be discipling all the wilderness girls and that makes me pretty excited, too! i am excited about all the new staff that will be coming. i am excited about all the differences summer will bring in programs and such. i am also really excited about the change in the weather and seeing green grass and seeing the aspens bloom!

God is doing a lot of things in my life right now - just revealing to me how prideful and selfish i really am. and how much i need others even though i don't want to admit it. it's going to be good, though :)

on another note i saw 2 moose on saturday - a mom and her calf! risa, tim, texaco, and i were on our way to gunnison when we saw the moose! tim screamed like a little girl because he was so excited (you see, he was promised by our boss that there were moose here but he had yet to see any until this past saturday) and we turned the car around so we could watch them. well the mom wasn't too excited about us watching so she jumped a fence, and when her baby followed he got stuck. then we all started freaking out and feeling terrible like it was our fault, and we all started praying for the baby moose! God heard and answered our prayer and after a few minutes of struggling, the baby moose made it free! it was so cute because he just pranced off and you could tell he was so happy about it!

tonight was my night off and i went for a run for the first time in months (it's been too snowy to run here) and it was great! i went farther than i thought i would be able to (about 1.25-1.5 miles, i am not exactly sure), but found that i am not 100% acclimated to the altitude. i guess i am acclimated enough to hike and play games with childrens, but running uses more oxygen than those things. i just got a headache and was able to finish the run, and then i assigned myself the task of drinking an entire nalgene of water before going to bed. i am a little more than half done with that ;)

i would like to leave you with the words to my new favorite worship song, the stand:
You stood before creation
Eternity within Your hand
You spoke the earth into motion
My soul now to stand

You stood before my failure
Carried the Cross for my shame
My sin weighed upon Your shoulders
My soul now to stand

So what can I say
What can I do
But offer this heart O God
Completely to You

So I'll walk upon salvation
Your Spirit alive in me
This life to declare Your promise
My soul now to stand

So what can I say
What can I do
But offer this heart O God
Completely to You

So I’ll stand
With arms high and heart abandoned
In awe of the One who gave it all

So I’ll stand
My soul Lord to You surrendered
All I am is Yours

Wednesday, 8 April 2009

hiding in the mountains

has it really been so long since i have last written in this thing? so crazy! so much has gone on, and so much is always going on that it is hard to find time or motivation to do anything beyond what is necessary. some of you receive my email updates, and i try to send those out at least once a week. if you don't get them but you would like to, just get your email address to me somehow and we will work it out.

so, things here have been great - i love my job and i love the people i work with. i am not super close to anyone really, but i have some people that i feel know me better than the others, and that is always nice. i live in a cabin with 5 other girls, and it is always a blast! honestly, it is nothing but the grace of God that keeps our cabin peaceful and fight-free...6 girls is a lot of girls to share one room and 2 bathrooms! the weather is finally warming up - it is now in the 50s most days (and then every once in a while the temperature drops and we get random snow days...!!!) so i can wear my chacos! hooray! i have missed those guys like you wouldn't believe.

a couple of weeks back we took one of our groups (from texas - holla!) on a ski trip to monarch and i decided to hit the slopes with them! most of the other staff also went that day, so it was a lot of fun. now, i like snowboarding. a lot. i have never gone downhill skiing and have been snowboarding before, so i strap on a board, despite my clumsy nature and everything i know about the sport any myself when i am on a board. the day was great, i was on a board for 7 hours with no problems. then comes the last run of the day. you know, the notorious one. the one right before the lifts close. the one where you are tired and your legs are shot but you are going to get your money's worth dang it! well, i totally ate it on my last run and broke my wrist. i thought it was just a sprain and i tried to board down the rest of the mountain but it just couldn't happen. the great thing was that i was going down the slope with brandi, our nurse! so she stayed with me until we made it to ski patrol. so, long story short, for the past almost 4 weeks i have had a cast on my arm and i have been a lefty! i am getting really good at writing with my left hand...everything else i pretty much did with my left hand before i broke my wrist anyway. now i have a hard splint (which i got 2 days ago) and it is essentially like a cast, the only difference is i can take it off to shower. i am still not allowed to do anything with my right hand, but i went rappelling as soon as i got back from the doctor ;) nothing to it, just went down left-handed!

right after i broke my wrist i got sick for about a week - i was really nauseous and was put in quarantine in case whatever i had was contagious! it is not good for illness to spread around camps! i got out of quarantine on a saturday and then the following wednesday i got hit with a pretty intense case of food poisoning...i threw up 9 times in 10 hours (i didn't sleep much that night)!!!! it was ridiculous. but i got out of quarantine from that this past saturday, and now things are great!

today another group of kids comes in, and we will be busy for the remaining 5 weeks of OE! it's pretty exciting that kids are coming back, because for the past several weeks we have been doing staff training (and due to illness, i missed 8 out of 10 days!). like i said, there are only 5 weeks left of OE! it's so hard to believe that i have been here for 2 months. how on earth did time go by so quickly? i am excited for summer, though. this summer i am going to continue working at redcloud as wilderness staff (basically i will be a backpacking guide in the rocky mountains - yess!!!!!!) and it is going to be awesome! adam and risa, 2 fellow OE staff, will also be doing wilderness with me this summer!

well, i need to get going, but i will honestly try to keep this updated on a semi-regular basis!

Thursday, 12 February 2009

new job!

well folks, i guess it's about time for me to let you know what is going on here at my new job! amazingly, i have internet in my cabin (although it is extremely slow and i am limited in things i can do with it, but it IS internet!) and here i sit on my top bunk writing this.

monday i woke up at 4:15 and got the final things done before heading to the airport at 5. i flew into denver and then had a connecting flight to colorado springs, where sarah picked me up. we then made a 5 hour drive in about 8.5 hours, and made it to camp right as it was getting dark! it was good, though, because we got to know each other and so i already had a buddy coming into camp. we had a rough time making it over monarch pass - we made it on the third try, after we went back into town and bought chains for her tires! once we got here, we learned our cabin assignment and moved all our stuff in, and me being the person that i am, i had to unpack and organize everything right away! i thought i had brought a lot of stuff, but honestly compared to these other girls i have NOTHING. it's kinda funny, really.

everything is SO BEAUTIFUL HERE! we are in a valley in the san juan mountains, and everything is covered in snow. beautiful, white, fluffy, sparkly snow! the trees are massive, and there are mountains on all sides. it truly is breath-taking. i often find myself just standing and staring at the beauty that surrounds me. it just makes me stand in awe of God and His majesty! it is just so incredible!

i have had a lot of fun already. as usual, i think almost everything is funny, so i spend most of my time laughing. it definitely helps that everyone here is pretty funny! i have been snowshoeing 2 times, and it is so fun! tomorrow we are mountain biking - the high is not even going to reach 30 and it will be snowing all day! ahhh!!! i am really nervous about it (if you have ever seen me on a bike in dry conditions, you will know why).

this job is also a lot more physically demanding than any other job i have had before, and that actually is saying a lot! when i worked at eagle, it was a very physically demanding job, but even that was not as rough as this job! i think a lot of it has to do with the fact that the atmosphere is so much thinner here and so when i breathe i don't get as much oxygen and i get tired more quickly. the hike we did today (snowshoeing) was really difficult for me, but by God's grace i made it through. i prayed for most of the way, and concentrated on moving one step forward at a time.

one thing to be especially thankful for is the fellowship and community here. i know i can trust the people here (and they have proved it through several initiatives, too!) and we just have a good time. every morning we are taking the time to hang out and be intentional about truly getting to know each other. each morning we hear one or 2 testimonies of the other OE (outdoor education) staff (depending on time constraints)...it's just so great! and pretty much every night we eat dinner at different full time staff houses. it's great!

i am also thankful that i have not had any problems adjusting to the altitude. i have not had any problems with headaches or altitude sickness, which is incredible! however, i do have trouble sleeping at night, which i have heard is pretty common. also, this morning i woke up with a nosebleed, but that is it. so much to be thankful for!

there is a lot of stuff that i need prayer for right now, too. please pray that i just lean on God and continually seek Him. pray that i seek opportunities to serve others and then follow through on them. pray that i have a good attitude about the difficult activities (like mountain biking) and about the really cold weather. pray that God protects me (and the other OE staff) against illness and injury. also pray that God protects the OE staff from satan and dissention...that He would bind us tightly and deeply. pray that we would all give the students our all...for each group and each student. also please pray that God directs my future - i am undecided as to whether or not i will stay here past may.

i will do my best to keep ya'll posted! i miss ya'll, and i miss texas, but i do love colorado and i am so blessed to have a job where i live in the mountains and get to share the love of the Lord with public school kids!

Tuesday, 3 February 2009

my old job

today was my last day at the heb.

i am done.

this is the first time i walked away knowing that i am officially no longer an employee of mr. butt. because this time, unlike the other times, i actually quit instead of going on a leave of absence.

it's a good feeling. different, but good.

it has finally hit me that i really am moving. it takes longer for things to really sink in with me, and so here i am 6 days before flying to start a new chapter of my life in a different state, and i am finally starting to grasp what that means. yesterday i mailed 3 packages to my new home because it was actually cheaper than taking checked baggage with me - yikes! i am equally terrified and excited. and i think both emotions are due to the fact that i am stepping out into a completely new place and i don't really know what to expect.

yikes!

Monday, 26 January 2009

my new job

well, i am sure of at least 2 people who are curious about this new turn of events in my life...so here are all the details!:

in november, i was referred to a website (ccca) by anthony, a boss of mine at camp eagle. he knew i really wanted to get involved in camp ministry, and there were no open positions at eagle, so he was trying to help me out. it's a really cool website...you can search for jobs, post jobs, and post your resume...it's just cool. anyway, you can search for jobs on the site using specific criteria. for example, you can specify if you want full time, part time, or summer; if you want to be paid, to work as a volunteer, or to raise support; what state(s) you would be willing to work in; and what kind of position you are seeking. well, i knew what i was looking for so i ran a pretty specific search and the only thing that came up was sky ranch in van, tx. no offense, but i just was not looking to move to east texas. and the position wasn'ts really what i wanted, either. so i didn't pursue that.

well, as time passed, i talked with friends about different camps and applied to a camp in fort collins because a friend of mine recommended it to me. however, the position was not full time (it was for the summer) and i was disappointed about that...

this brings us to about a month ago. one morning as i was reading my Bible, i really felt like i should search the ccca website again for the job i wanted. i finished reading my Bible and praying and just didn't act on it, but i thought about it all morning. finally that afternoon i opened up ron and got to work. i ran a very specific search, and i was almost positive that it would not yield anything i was really interested in. however, when the search results came up i was surprised to see a position for an outdoor education specialist open at an incredible camp in colorado. i clicked on the description, and it was everything i had been hoping for and more! another plus was that i know someone who has worked there and they absolutely loved it! i went to their site, downloaded the application, printed it, and began it that evening.

the next morning i got an email from jennifer, the director of the outdoor education program at the camp, asking me if i had any problems downloading the app and if i had any questions. that day i spent most of the day filling out the application. it was incredible! there were so many deep questions that really made me think hard about what i believe. i had to do some serious research in the Word, and it was just amazing! i was also forced to take a good look at myself (i am SO not good at answering questions about myself) and analyze a lot of things. at the end of the day, i scanned the application and emailed it to jennifer. the next day she emailed me to let me know that she had read my application and wanted to schedule a phone interview...and so we scheduled it for that friday morning...which happened to be my birthday! our interview lasted for more than 2 hours, but it went really well! we were both sick, so it was kinda funny!

after speaking with her, she said legally they could not go any further in the hiring process until all my reference forms were filled out and returned to her. that was good because it gave me some time to think and pray about it all. i really struggled with certain aspects, like it is a 17 hour drive (at best) from my house to camp and i have never lived that far from home before. it is difficult for me to leave my dog because he is neurotic and emotional, and i am afraid he will think i am abandoning him (even though my family takes great care of him when i am gone). the two things that i struggled with the most were that 1) i was having trouble getting health insurance and you have to be crazy to work at a camp without health insurance (at least if you are me...!)!! and 2) the job doesn't pay much at all...in fact, all full time staff raise support (like missionaries do).

i really learned a lot about myself in the process. i was so torn between different emotions. excited because i finally found a job that suited me to a T. excited because i would get to live in a state that i have dreamed of living in for years (and i would be around MOUNTAINS and SNOW and OTHER OUTDOOR-LOVING, JESUS-LOVING PEOPLE!). terrified because it is so different from any big decision i have made before. anxious because i wasn't sure if i would even get the job. worried about money because i know nothing about raising support. and curious about what on earth God was going to do with this situation! i wish i could say that i had complete faith and trust in God and didn't worry about a thing...but that would be a lie. i worried a lot actually. and stressed a lot. i was an "o ye of little faith" person. ridiculous. i prayed a lot. i wanted so badly to take the job, but wasn't sure if i was supposed to or not (keeping in mind that i still hadn't even been offered the job yet, either). and i had a lot of time to think about everything, too. like how i felt lead during my time with the Lord to go back to that website and run a search months after the first time i had heard about it. how i ran a very specific search and found something exactly like what i feel called to. how everything just seemed to fall in to place. how God would take care of me financially and in every other way, and if this was truly the place He was leading me to, He would make it all happen.

all my references finally made it in about a week later, and last wednesday i got the call from jennifer saying, "i hope you would like a job because i would love to give you one!" i accepted the job that night, and from then on, things have been crazy!

i got health insurance (a miracle in itself), and my parents offered to pay for the insurance my first three months at camp as a donation...their form of sponsorship. so blessed! then i found out that my insurance doesn't cover me in that area, and i quickly crashed into a despairing attitude, thinking "i knew this was too good to be true, i can't believe i let myself get excited about this...". that attitude lasted for a night, and then in the morning my parents helped me figure out that i will still be covered, it's just that everything will be out of network and quite a bit more expensive. but i will still have insurance. i then felt stupid for despairing so quickly. i am constantly reminded of how human i am and how imperfect i am...how desperately i need God!

so here i am, just 2 weeks away from flying out to start a new chapter of my life in colorado. i am exceedingly excited! i am still a bit nervous, but i have finally reached the point of "this is actually happening"! i realize that to a lot of people, my choice may seem...unwise...because i just graduated college and instead of starting a typical job in which i can earn a decent amount of money, i have chosen to work at a camp in colorado earning next to nothing and having to raise support. the thing is, though, that i am positive this is where God is calling me to be. i don't know for how long, and i don't know why. i just know that i must got where i am called, and this is it. raising support will be difficult for me. i don't know how to write a support letter. i don't know who all to send one to. i am not good at asking for things, especially money. it is like missions work, though, so by supporting me, people will be supporting ministry. it's just...hard to ask people for money. i guess that will be a lesson in humility...?? ;)

as far as what i will be doing, i will be living in the san juan mountains of colorado working as an outdoor education specialist at a wonderful Christian adventure camp. i will get to work with public, private, and homeschool kids, doing fun outdoor activities such as canoeing, hiking, horseback riding, etc., and teaching them lessons in all different subjects, all while meeting the colorado state education standards (very much like the TEKS). i have committed to being up there at least through may, and am praying that God would show me His will for me after that. i have been assured that if i would like to stay through november, i can, but i want to make sure this is God's will for me before i committ to that. so yes, i could use a lot of prayer right now.

and believe it or not, as detailed as that story was, that wasn't the whole of it...but near enough. God is so good!

Saturday, 17 January 2009

maybe the only time i will relate to one of cameron diaz's characters

1) go to this video
2) move the cursor until the time shows 5:15
3) watch for approximately 40 seconds

i feel like this a lot. no matter what happens, what people say to me...i have the hardest time crying. it takes something near catastrophic to make me cry. sometimes movies or songs or a book will move me to the point of tears, but nothing ever spills over. i have too much control. i can count on one hand the number of people who have truly seen me cry. i can't even remember the last time i really had a good cry. (literally, brain straining in an effort to figure this one out..!) sometimes i am really glad for this, because i don't get hurt or sad as easily as most people. and less people see my red, swollen crying face. but most of the time, it's downright frustrating. something must be wrong with me. even if i want to cry, i can't. it's like i have forgotten how. it makes me question whether or not i am really human sometimes. why is it that nothing touches me? why nothing really reaches me? it's like i'm numb. incapable of feeling sad. it's so odd.

do any of you know what i am talking about? is this an issue for anyone else?

Thursday, 15 January 2009

so i wait

it's hard for me to write blogs. not because i have nothing to say. not because nothing interesting happens in my life. it's because i don't think anyone reads them, and then i feel like it is a wasted effort. therefore, my blogging is sporadic and...limited. however, after spending a grand total of less than 10 minutes combined on facebook and looking at other peoples' blogs, i decided i would make yet another feeble attempt to revive my blogging self.

just recently i decided it had been too long since my guitar and i had some quality time together. i brushed the dust off the case, tuned my guitar, and just started playing. i was going through the music i had, and one song stood out to me in particular. it's a great song, one that most of us may have heard and sang many a time...but probably have not given a lot of thought to. as i read through the lyrics, i felt like i had been struck with a lightning bolt:

"Hungy I come to You for I know You satisfy
I am empty but I know Your love does not run dry
So I wait for You, so I wait for You

I'm falling on my knees
Offering all of me
Jesus, You're all this heart is living for

Broken, I run to You for Your arms are open wide
I am weary but I know Your touch restores my life
So I wait for You, so I wait for You

I'm falling on my knees
Offering all of me
Jesus, You're all this heart is living for"

The thing that hit me the hardest about the song is the line right before the chorus: "so i wait for You.." i have talked so much on this blog recently about how life is such a waiting game. how all i ever do is just wait for something to happen. for a light to be turned on, for an answer to come my way. and i have been frustrated. i have despaired. it's so hard not to! a lot of things are really hard right now. i just turned 23. i don't mind that, except i no longer have health insurance. if you know me at all, you know this is bad bad bad news. and just 2 days ago i learned that i had not been approved for the health insurance i had applied for, the health insurance i was counting on having so soon. my brother just signed an 8 year contract with the marines. i am still stuck in a city i hate. working a job i still have major attitude problems with. i have applied for 7 jobs since november, and so far, still don't have one. (there is a possibility of a job in my very near future, but i would only be getting $400 a month and would have to raise support on top of it...although it sounds like the job of my dreams, except for the low pay and i couldn't take my dog...). i have several big decisions to make soon. i don't know what on earth to do.

so when i read through the lyrics of that song, i was thunderstruck. how many times have i sang that song COMPLETELY IGNORING the part that says, "so i wait"??? the answer to everything i am worried about right now? wait on God. i can't find a job? wait on God. He will provide. i don't have health insurance? wait on the Lord. He will see me through it somehow. all my other issues? wait on my Savior. after all, there is nothing He can't save me from. and really, the whole song is so true. i feel so empty sometimes. so broken. so weary. but i don't always have to be.....so i wait.

Sunday, 4 January 2009

overdue new years blog!

well, it came and went like a flash of lightnin, eh? it is hard to believe that 2008 is over. 2009 just seems like such a weird year to me already. weird number...weird year.

this year started off somewhat similar to the way last year started off - i went to camp eagle for the second new years party/staff reunion. it was so great! i was surrounded by tons of people i love who made every second of every day immensely entertaining. new years eve (the day of), i went spelunking with a group of friends...we explored 2 caves on camp property. it was incredible! the first cave looked like a hole in the ground - you just dropped into the darkness, and you were in a large room underground! it was so great! the second cave had an entrance that looked like a crack in the ground - once you slid through, you had to crawl through the first room, and then army crawl across sharp rocks to get to the end of the insanely long tunnel! that cave was even more exciting than the first for several reasons: only 4 of us went in, which was good since a lot of people in such a flat space would be ridiculous! we got to see 5 little baby bats - SO STINKING CUTE! once we got to the end of the cave, we were going to crawl the remaining 10 feet to touch the far wall (as if to say, "ha! we did it!"), and the girl in front of me (sara) saw 3 pairs of yellow eyes glowing out at us from the darkness. sooooo....we crawled as fast as we could across the razor sharp rocks and through the insanely tight spaces to make it back out alive! can i just say i love exploring caves?

for the last hour or so of 2008, i played shuffle board, foosball, and watched some of my other friends play mario kart on the wii, pool, and air hockey. everyone was insanely excited whenit was finally 2009! still so hard to wrap my head around this one...

then on new years day, we started the year off with a bang! well, not really a bang, but there were lots of crashing noises for sure! you see, camp recently bought some mountain boards, and a handfull of us decided OH MY GOSH THAT SOUNDS SO FUN WE HAVE TO TRY IT! it was ridiculously fun, exhilirating, fast, and dangerous - all excellent things that make for a really fun day! pretty much everyone that tried it crashed and burned a few times, but it was excellent! mark fell and got massive strawberries all over his back, elbows, and then hurt his wrist. i fell several times, but not as badly as he did! it was not the wisest idea to participate because 1) i am accident and injury prone, and 2) i lose insurance in less than a week. but how could i say no?! luckily, when i fell, i only got pretty bruised. i have bruises up and down my legs, my elbows are shredded and bruised, i have a MASSIVE bruise on my left thigh that is all swollen, and i hurt my back on one of the falls. however, nothing serious enough to see a doctor about! (and as a precaution, i wore a hoodie and jeans, so my injuries were sustained THROUGH clothing, not due to a lack of) :) praise Jesus! He let me have my cake and eat it, too in this case ;) to close off the day, i went bouldering and then did the sherpa trek and belayed for the power pole. such an excellent start to the new year!

i didn't think it would be possible to top last year. i mean, catching a live fish with your bare hands is something to get pretty darn excited about! but this year's accomplishments and adventures are already more fun!

hilights from 2008:
1) turned 22 (my favorite number is 2, and there are 2 2's in this year!)
2) lived with one of my best friends
3) had probably one of my best semesters in college ever
4) went to Mexico on a mission trip - first time to Mexico!
5) took a class over the summer and ACED it!
6) moved away from college station forever
7) spent 2 weeks in colorado with my best friend helping her prepare for her wedding...and went to my first drive-in movie!
8) my best friend got married!
9) student teaching
10) graduated from college!

God is so good...i got to do things that i never thought i would do! He provided for me so that i never had to go without something i truly needed. He taught me so many lessons about so many things. He remains faithful in good and in bad times. He has a plan for me, and all i have to do is seek and follow His will. 2009 is filled with so many uncertainties for me. i truly cannot see anything in front of me - each step must be a step of faith. i have no clue where i will be working, where i will be living, how i will be serving. no clue about anything. and that is hard. it's also exciting. but mostly hard ;) however, i know i serve a God who has a plan for me, no matter how limited my sight is or how bad i am at trusting Him! so thankful!

also, here is a picture of my massive bruise on my leg. keep in mind that it is still swollen! woo!

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