so i wait
it's hard for me to write blogs. not because i have nothing to say. not because nothing interesting happens in my life. it's because i don't think anyone reads them, and then i feel like it is a wasted effort. therefore, my blogging is sporadic and...limited. however, after spending a grand total of less than 10 minutes combined on facebook and looking at other peoples' blogs, i decided i would make yet another feeble attempt to revive my blogging self.
just recently i decided it had been too long since my guitar and i had some quality time together. i brushed the dust off the case, tuned my guitar, and just started playing. i was going through the music i had, and one song stood out to me in particular. it's a great song, one that most of us may have heard and sang many a time...but probably have not given a lot of thought to. as i read through the lyrics, i felt like i had been struck with a lightning bolt:
The thing that hit me the hardest about the song is the line right before the chorus: "so i wait for You.." i have talked so much on this blog recently about how life is such a waiting game. how all i ever do is just wait for something to happen. for a light to be turned on, for an answer to come my way. and i have been frustrated. i have despaired. it's so hard not to! a lot of things are really hard right now. i just turned 23. i don't mind that, except i no longer have health insurance. if you know me at all, you know this is bad bad bad news. and just 2 days ago i learned that i had not been approved for the health insurance i had applied for, the health insurance i was counting on having so soon. my brother just signed an 8 year contract with the marines. i am still stuck in a city i hate. working a job i still have major attitude problems with. i have applied for 7 jobs since november, and so far, still don't have one. (there is a possibility of a job in my very near future, but i would only be getting $400 a month and would have to raise support on top of it...although it sounds like the job of my dreams, except for the low pay and i couldn't take my dog...). i have several big decisions to make soon. i don't know what on earth to do.
so when i read through the lyrics of that song, i was thunderstruck. how many times have i sang that song COMPLETELY IGNORING the part that says, "so i wait"??? the answer to everything i am worried about right now? wait on God. i can't find a job? wait on God. He will provide. i don't have health insurance? wait on the Lord. He will see me through it somehow. all my other issues? wait on my Savior. after all, there is nothing He can't save me from. and really, the whole song is so true. i feel so empty sometimes. so broken. so weary. but i don't always have to be.....so i wait.
just recently i decided it had been too long since my guitar and i had some quality time together. i brushed the dust off the case, tuned my guitar, and just started playing. i was going through the music i had, and one song stood out to me in particular. it's a great song, one that most of us may have heard and sang many a time...but probably have not given a lot of thought to. as i read through the lyrics, i felt like i had been struck with a lightning bolt:
"Hungy I come to You for I know You satisfy
I am empty but I know Your love does not run dry
So I wait for You, so I wait for You
I'm falling on my knees
Offering all of me
Jesus, You're all this heart is living for
Broken, I run to You for Your arms are open wide
I am weary but I know Your touch restores my life
So I wait for You, so I wait for You
I'm falling on my knees
Offering all of me
Jesus, You're all this heart is living for"
I am empty but I know Your love does not run dry
So I wait for You, so I wait for You
I'm falling on my knees
Offering all of me
Jesus, You're all this heart is living for
Broken, I run to You for Your arms are open wide
I am weary but I know Your touch restores my life
So I wait for You, so I wait for You
I'm falling on my knees
Offering all of me
Jesus, You're all this heart is living for"
The thing that hit me the hardest about the song is the line right before the chorus: "so i wait for You.." i have talked so much on this blog recently about how life is such a waiting game. how all i ever do is just wait for something to happen. for a light to be turned on, for an answer to come my way. and i have been frustrated. i have despaired. it's so hard not to! a lot of things are really hard right now. i just turned 23. i don't mind that, except i no longer have health insurance. if you know me at all, you know this is bad bad bad news. and just 2 days ago i learned that i had not been approved for the health insurance i had applied for, the health insurance i was counting on having so soon. my brother just signed an 8 year contract with the marines. i am still stuck in a city i hate. working a job i still have major attitude problems with. i have applied for 7 jobs since november, and so far, still don't have one. (there is a possibility of a job in my very near future, but i would only be getting $400 a month and would have to raise support on top of it...although it sounds like the job of my dreams, except for the low pay and i couldn't take my dog...). i have several big decisions to make soon. i don't know what on earth to do.
so when i read through the lyrics of that song, i was thunderstruck. how many times have i sang that song COMPLETELY IGNORING the part that says, "so i wait"??? the answer to everything i am worried about right now? wait on God. i can't find a job? wait on God. He will provide. i don't have health insurance? wait on the Lord. He will see me through it somehow. all my other issues? wait on my Savior. after all, there is nothing He can't save me from. and really, the whole song is so true. i feel so empty sometimes. so broken. so weary. but i don't always have to be.....so i wait.
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very inspiring post. thanks :)