Remember that meltdown I had last week? Well, I'm okay now. Really I think it was just that one day - I'm not sure what was going on that day, but I just freaked.
Since then, I have had the opportunity to talk to several mentors and contacts who have given me great advice and have spoken words of encouragement.
And here is what I think - God will provide something. I don't know what and I don't know when, but I am sure He will. I am confident in this.
This morning in our devotion, Matt and I read about praying with boldness. We have been praying for doors to open for months, but I don't know how bold we have been in asking. While there is one school in particular that I really want to teach at, there are plenty more where I would be happy and excited to teach, too. Today, though, I prayed specifically for that one school, boldly asking God to open doors and make a way. And I know that if He says no, He has another plan.
In the meantime, I am doing my part. I don't believe that God wants me to pray for a job and expect Him to just drop one into my lap without me meeting Him halfway. So I've been emailing principals and making school visits. I have been networking and asking questions. I've been researching. But I know that when I land a job, it won't be because of my footwork. It will be because God provided.
So no - I still have no idea where I will be teaching in the fall. But I have to trust that I will be. I have to remember that God has a plan, and He has no reason to be concerned. Since it's His plan and He's not worried, I shouldn't be either.