disciple now

this weekend got off to a bit of a rough start - i worked from 6-2:30 on friday, and then as soon as i got off work i ran home, changed clothes, and then audrey and i headed to houston for dnow. we got to the church one hour before the kiddos got there, so it was a bit hectic, and i learned that my group would be the 7th, 8th, and 9th grade girls. oh goodness. the weekend was full of girls who ate more than their weight in spaghetti, hot dogs, donuts, cookies, and every form of high fructose corn syrup possible. they then proceeded to have burping contests and farting wars. they also made sure to exercise their voices by screaming as loud as possible as much as possible. to be honest, i didn't mind except these things didn't quite stop when we were having Bible study or when we were supposed to be sleeping. overall it was a really good weekend, and i enjoyed it a lot. it's difficult to be a Bible study leader for a group of girls knowing that i am in one of those proverbial "valleys" - i guess i just don't feel like i should be leading anyone or anything when i am feeling distant or struggling. who knows. because i am used to being a counselor type person for an entire week, it's odd to only have a group for a weekend - it's just so short!

the wonderful thing in all of it is, even though i feel distant (or at times just don't feel anything at all) and am dealing with a lot of things, i know God is still good and He still loves me. i know He won't leave me, and i know i am not alone in it all. and i know these things to be true, even if i don't feel it.

and now, i am about to pass out from serious lack of sleep. :)